Hello everyone,
It’s been a very long time since I’ve been on….well….anything. The last few months have been extremely difficult for me in dealing with the constant obstacles, barriers and setbacks when trying to figure out what to ultimately do with MartyrBondage.com and my work in general.
Firstly, to those of you that have messaged, emailed or reached out to me in any way, let me apologize for the extreme delay in responses. I just haven’t had any time or even desire to sign onto DA or MB.com or anything really. I’ve gone on Twitter a few times on my phone because it’s right there, but that’s about it. Everything else is on my web browser on my computer. As I said, things have been very difficult for me and to be honest, I’ve been extremely depressed about the current state and sets of circumstances that I have found myself in thanks to the discrimination that myself and so many other bondage producers, models and artists face on a daily basis. I’m sure some people don’t consider it to be discrimination, but it is what it is. There’s no more bullshitting or sugarcoating this for me anymore. If I am unjustly and unfairly denied opportunities or services because of a sexual orientation that I cannot control or wish to alter, that’s discrimination.
In the last year, I’ve tried to find a way to open up my website again to be able to take on new payments and as of about 10 or 11 months ago, I thought I had found a service that would do so called ‘Pinwheel’. I won’t go into crazy detail, but just know that this service basically told me that I had to create a DBA for my business (legit legally create and register a business for my art, which of course costed several hundred dollars), jump through about a year’s worth of hoops, file all sorts of documents, schedule an “on site inspector” to come to my home for some ridiculous reason to take pictures and spend plenty of money to get things off the ground. They said that they specialized in “high risk” websites (basically mine) and assured me that we had a deal in the works to get things off the ground. I literally got to what I was told was ‘the very last step’, and their bank decided to terminate our relationship because they “couldn’t back what I was selling”. At the very last second and after nearly a year’s worth of work and expenses. After I jumped through countless moronic hoops that they asked me to. You have no clue how angry this made me. On top of this, SubscribeStar, the only service that had been processing payments for my work, had decided to freeze my assets owed to me and blocked any new members from joining. Thankfully, the issue with SubscribeStar has since been resolved, but there was about a 2 month period where they were holding payouts for ‘ransom’ basically and asking me for information that I couldn’t provide, or had already provided. In the end, it was basically determined that the people at SubscribeStar weren’t paying attention to the emails that they and I had been sending back and forth for weeks and weeks and the information was right in front of them. Again, I won’t go into crazy detail (because I could write paragraphs and paragraphs and paragraphs about these two events), but just know that this has been by far the most difficult time that I have faced since I’ve started creating and sharing my art. On top of all this, I was regularly finding my art being pirated on all sorts of different platforms and websites thanks to the integrity and loyalty of some fans who discovered it and notified me.
Doors closing in every direction, my work being pirated all over the place, while horrible AI images flooded the galleries of hundreds, if not thousands, of “artists” all across the internet would be enough to make anyone want to quit. But while the recent months have got me down, depressed and feeling hopeless, I never stopped creating new art. It certainly has slowed down a bit, as I have been rendering more ‘test images’ than final versions and my career was getting in the way, but my inspiration has never left me. I even took 2 weeks off to ‘clear my head’ while I was awaiting a special bondage custom project to get completed and sent to me. But throughout those two weeks, I was constantly coming up with new ideas in my head and writing them down in my phone so as to not forget them. So as soon as I fired the computers back up, I was able to unleash the flood of ideas that had been coming to me for weeks and weeks.
My point is, even though things got me down and I felt like there was no way to continue my website, I still kept creating, because that’s what I love to do. And I know that there are some of you out there that love to see my work and what new ideas I’ve come up with. A day or two ago, I kind of had a revelation of sorts when I was standing in the restroom at work looking at myself in the mirror. I’ve come to realize that this production of MartyrBondage is bigger than me. I need to do what I can to overcome the trials and tribulations that the universe places in my path. I want people to enjoy my work. I want my fans to see my new creations and comment on what they love about them. I love to see reworks and homages of my work and to hear how people interpret certain scenarios that the girls find themselves in. Even though I have a pretty good job, I don’t believe that my career will help me make my mark on the Earth in any way. Call it a midlife crisis, I don’t know. To me, my bondage art is by far the most successful thing that I’ve ever done. Though it doesn’t compare to some, I have tens of thousands of people who follow me on various social media platforms. That means these people have viewed something that I have created from scratch and enjoyed it enough to continue to want to see more of what I do. I’ve had hundreds of people who are willing to pay their hard earned money to sign up for memberships on my website to help support me and want to see what more I have to offer. I’ve had people reach out to me for commissioned art, I’ve had people create their own versions of my pieces, some of my all-time favorite bondage models and riggers, people that I have idolized for decades, have reached out to me and expressed appreciation for my work and followed me on social media platforms, and I have never asked a single one of them to do so. My point in this is not to brag, but that this revelation was a spark of excitement for me. A motivating moment that made me say to myself “Fuck the banks, fuck the politicians and fuck the pirates. This is for me and my fans. The true people who enjoy my work, want to see more and look back on my catalog with fond memories.”
The way I see it, I’m not going to be around forever. Eventually, this will inevitably come to an end and when it does, I want people to be able to look back at my work and say “Man, I really enjoyed these pieces. They spoke to me in some way or another.” Even if it’s decades after I’m gone. That is really my ultimate goal with this. I’ve been such a fan of bondage for such a long time that I want to make my contribution in the best possible way that I can. I know I’m not the best at lighting. I’m no Shakespeare on the keyboard. I can’t animate and create amazing videos like some of the other artists can, but I think that I can bring enough ideas, with cute looking girls and good enough images to the table that enough people have wanted to continue to view my work and have asked about me when I’ve been gone. That’s what inspires me. That’s what makes me say “Fuck everybody, but my own.” You guys are owed so much better than what I have given in the last few weeks and months. So my plan is to set some personal goals and deadlines for certain projects and make sure that I can get them out for you to enjoy.
As I write this, we’re getting pretty close to September of 2023, and I’ve created several completed pieces in the year 2023, but no one has ever seen them. Well, maybe like 2 close internet friends, but no one outside of that. There are nearly 8 months worth of art, technical advancements, new characters, stories and scenarios that the world has not yet seen from me, and that’s not what I want from this. While I tend to create images and scenarios that I, myself would like to see girls captured in, this art is not just for me. It ceases to become art in my opinion if you can’t share it with others to enjoy. I refuse to get caught up in the red tape and nonsense that comes along with dealing with these bureaucrats, thieves and politicians. I don’t respect them, so why should I let them dictate my emotions and keep me from creating the art that I love to create and share it with the people that I know love to view it? No more.
As for the future of the website, due to the nonsense that I’ve had to deal with when trying to find a new payment processor, the current incarnation of MartyrBondage.com will be no more within a year. I’ve dealt with far too many issues and hardships with Wix and will terminate my relationship with them as soon as my yearly plan with them has expired (July of 2024). In the meantime, I will continue to update SubscribeStar and push them to get off their asses and get a gallery format rolled out. The web address MartyrBondage.com will still remain under my ownership until I can find a new platform to house my work. Then, that platform will take on the name MartyrBondage.com and become the new official website.
I plan on posting a few unseen 2022 (or prior) pieces in the next week or so and then I might roll out some 2023 created works. I will say that 2023 has been a bit weird for me in terms of creating new works, in that I haven’t been pumping out as many renders as I have in previous years. For example, I might have rendered 2 or 3 images a day in the previous years, but in 2023, I might render one test image in a day. Then maybe another test image of that same scene in the next couple of days until I got everything looking exactly how I want. In other words, it’s as if my focus has shifted from quantity to quality. Don’t get me wrong, there are still hundreds and hundreds of unseen images that I can post, but newer work has seemed to attract a different kind of focus.
Anyway, at this point, I’m starting to ramble. Just let me say again that to all of you that have reached out to me in some form or another, I sincerely apologize for my lack of response. I promise I will get back to all of you as soon as I can. Please forgive me. I did not ignore anyone on purpose and there was no malice intended, things have just been very hard for me. My career was getting in the way of my enjoyments in life and all the bullshit that I dealt with with SubscribeStar and Pinwheel just came to a head all at once, but I plan on being much more active in the community again. I’ve met many people in the bondage world that I would consider friends and I don’t want to ruin friendships because I was not feeling up to signing into certain social media platforms. I enjoy speaking about bondage, my art and my favorite riggers and models. So I hope you’ll accept my apologies and we can rekindle a meaningful friendship that we had before I disappeared.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for enjoying my work and for continuing to come back. I can’t wait for you to see some of the new pieces I’ve been working on in the past few months. I don’t think you’ll be disappointed.
Much respect and appreciation,
Martin Martyr
